Operation: Launch

Thats the question I get asked a lot. Wether it be in youtube videos or books—” how bad do you want it?”

Well, truthfully, if I will answer that question. Maybe… Just maybe I don’t want it bad enough. Perhaps I’m doing all this just to look cool, and people might like it. But did I ever really want it that bad? Did I? Why is there no driving motivation for me to keep going? I have nothing to fight for. Im just a normal girl, in a normal family, with a normal life. I except i have a very big dream. Maybe I am just a lazy person. But I know deep down that there is another side of me that is very different from me or perhaps the real me, and I’m just too lazy to be it.

Eight days ago, I started this blog and dedicated to making blogs every week. Then suddenly, my laptop broke down, frustrating me because I couldn’t do my blogs. I was furious—or was I really? Or was I relieved that I don’t have to do blogs anymore for a short period of time? And that I don’t have to leave my comfort zone. I was disappointed for 2 days, and then after that, I completely forgot about my blog. Then, just on a random Tuesday, the thought came in, so I decided to push myself more, and here I am, writing this blog on my phone. I never knew I could do that. If it hadn’t been for me pushing myself and leaving my comfort zone, I would’ve been scrolling on my phone right now.

But I want it bad enough, tho. I wanna own a company one day. I have all these ideas, all these things, all these resources, and all the books I could find. But why can’t they fall into pieces? Why can’t I be part of the pieces? Why am I so lazy, constantly procrastinating, daydreaming, and overanalyzing things? I read somewhere that “you‘re exactly where you wish to be in life,” and that’s right, so abso-freakingly right. Like I said, I have all the resources, etc. All it takes was for me to actually do it. Wow, I’ve been saying that for years.

You know I am a girl with many dreams (why do I always say this), And I always have trouble finishing what I started. Cause I always constantly find a “better” one before executing what I already had plans for. And I just suck. The route to success will not always be one straight road; there will be blockage along the way, and I will be ready to face that.

And there goes that question again

“How bad do you want it?”

I guess whats really left for me Is to launch it. The only question was when? and how?

Thank you for reading to the end. I’m sorry if this post might seem confusing. I’m getting used to this blog thing. But thank you again; I really appreciate it. Leave comments for some writing or topic suggestions.