Every one of us dreams, whether it be a career, business, lifestyle, or material things. Each and every one of us has dreams we just do not know them yet. When I was 6 years old, I always liked to dream of a lot, lots of money, beautiful things, and fame. I thought when I grew up, I would just automatically have them, but “shockingly,” it did not. I’m still the same girl I was back then. the only difference was that I grew up.

Growing up in high school was much more boring than I expected. Sure, I had fun here and there, but something was missing—a sense of purpose. That feeling of meaning was absent from my life. Each day, I wake up when my alarm goes off, take a bath, eat, and then go to school, only to repeat this never-ending loop. I keep asking myself, “Is this it?” Why do I feel like something is missing or unfulfilled? I am more than this, and I sure hell do know that.

When I was asked what I wanted to be when I grew up. I always say I want to be a lawyer, a scientist, or a YouTuber. I never really knew what I wanted. All I wanted was to help. And to be someone extraordinary. Then, on the last week of 2023, I ordered 3 little books; The Song of Achilles, Atomic Habits, Rich Dad Poor Dad. little did you know, that one book there (Rich Dad Poor Dad) shaped my whole entire freaking year. I was so confused. Me? Start a business? It doesn’t sound familiar or enjoyable. I just thought. Me? A girl like me? to start a business. I still remember when that happened, I was in the toilet. Then, I began to think about it more. And then suddenly, the missing piece, the incomplete part of my identity, was found. Me? I wanna start a business! Hell yeah! I was so excited. My heart and soul have never tasted this passion in me before. This drive, this feeling, every noun you can think of. It was lit. I then searched for some “original” business ideas. Some were nice, some were tacky, and some were very common. Where is the light in my heart and the passion in my blood? Where did it all go?

Actually, I had a lot of ideas in my mind. i told myself “oh im just gonna create an agency that will generate a cash flow and then launch my business” thats the plan! Its been months. And there was still no action. Also. Hoping that one day all things will fall to pieces, and im 6 years old again dreaming of money and toys.

I never said I was lazy; I’m just distracted. I read a few chapters in books, watched 40-minute YouTube tutorials, hmmm, and what else? Oh, I daydream. A lot. Sometimes I write what I “learned” in a notebook,and thats about it. whenever i will try to do progress, i kept on waiting for the right time, the perfect weather, perfect setup- EVERYTHING. i can never get anything done. also i thought i had a lot of competition. you know, those other guys who also wanna do the same things im doing? but no. The only competition i had in this moment. was me. Yup, me,myself and I.